Darian Seth was born September 1st at 3:08 pm. He weighed 6lbs 5 oz and was 19 1/2 inches long. I can't imagine how big he would have been had I gone full term. Amazingly enough he needed no special care and was able to nurse right away. He's absolutely beautiful and looks just like his daddy. I don't see any of me in him yet lol. I'm still in awe over what Sharb and I made.
I labored for over 43 hours with no drugs (not by choice). More than half was spent in hard labor but my body was moving slow and dilating was taking forever. As long as me and Darian were doing good they let me continue no matter how long it took. Each hour Darian stayed inside me the better it was for him. It was the single most excruciating and exhausting time of my life. If labor is judgment and mercy and is to remind me I'm a fallen creature in need of a Savior...I got that message loud and clear lol
When it came time to give birth I just wanted it over with. I was so exhausted from labor and not sleeping but I was determined to finish it. 5 pushes later I felt him come out. It was the weirdest feeling. Moments later he was crying. As soon as Sharb cut the cord the doctor handed Darian off to a nurse who rushed him to the other side of the room to examine him. It wasn't long later though when a nurse brought Darian over and laid him on my chest (for that initial skin to skin contact) and said "he's perfectly healthy mom." Me and Sharb just started to cry. We'd both been praying he'd be healthy and he was.
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We were positively in love with him. I've never felt anything like it. He cried nonstop from the moment he was born until he was laid on my chest where he instantly went quiet. I remember Sharb saying "Look at him. He's with mommy and happy." That made me cry more. All the pain and long hours of travailing in labor I couldn't even remember. He was so small, so warm, soft and bright red from screaming. I couldn't take my eyes off him. There is no greater proof of God than to look into the face of your own baby. I couldn't believe he was mine.
The little piglet also tried to nurse immediately then resorted to sucking on his hand lol. He's definitely his father's son. Born hungry. Then I was hit with more pain because the doctor was pressing on my stomach, but having Darian there...nothing else mattered. The room could have exploded around me and it wouldn't have broke my attention on this little man.
Sharb is so proud I don't think even he can stand it lol. He didn't want to leave the first night after Darian was born. I had to make him because I knew he was exhausted as well. He slept very little the whole time I labored and didn't eat much either. He must've called/text everyone twice and sent out pics through phone and email to everyone me included! He's so cute. While Sharb holds him or watches him nurse he'll sing to him or talk to him and say things like "you'll be the best soccer player in the world" and "kicking mommy so hard was just practice wasn't it?" Sometimes while Darian's nursing he'll stop feeding and open his eyes as if listening. The first diaper change Sharb did and Darian was wide awake and being a wiggle worm all over the place. No surprise there. He was a wiggle worm inside me. He just wouldn't lay still and Sharb got all concerned and said "what do I do? I'm afraid I'll break him if I try to make him lie still". It was too cute and all I could tell him was "do the best you can".
Between him, Tracy, friends and family they kept me laughing,
as comfortable as possible, encouraged and distracted during the long haul of labor. I can't believe we made it through. Everything was such a struggle, but now when I hold my baby every moment was well worth it. I thought for sure it would take me a lot of time to recover, but I was up and around that evening and felt great. I'll be released tomorrow morning and Darian is going home with us. Right now he's got a full tummy, clean diaper and is sleeping in the his little bed next to mine. I cannot believe God gave us something so priceless. He's so beautiful and I couldn't have hoped for any better...
Darian
