Today I kept feeling him jump every few seconds or so and it started to worry me, but after some research I found out he just had the hiccups. Babies sometimes swallow fluid and it can give them hiccups :)
Darian can definitely hear the outside world. I discovered this once when I dropped a lid to a pot on the kitchen floor. It scared him and he jumped inside me like a jack rabbit. It's really interesting though how he responds to Sharb's voice. He doesn't respond the same way to mine and it's probably because he hears it all the time, but once daddy gets home Darian starts dancing. We can even see my stomach moving. It's so funny and cute! Sharb's been talking and reading to him since the first time he felt him move. We've done little experiments. When Darian hears Sharb he goes bananas and as soon as Sharb starts singing to him in Persian, Darian gets really still. How awesome is that? One day I laid on the sofa waiting for Sharb and put a book on my stomach while I read from another book out loud. As soon as Sharb walked in and Darian heard his voice, he kicked the book off my stomach and didn't settle down until Sharb started singing in Persian haha!
I can't wait to hold him. I can't wait to touch his tiny hands and feet. I can't wait to hear him cry. I can't wait to see the little, living masterpiece we created. As if every day we lived and breathed was for the moment this tiny person, who is us, can be born into the world. In Darian we have been immortalized. In him a goofy girl from Michigan and a boy from Tehran will always be a part of this world and past on in future generations. He is truly the best gift God could ever give. After a life of loss I'm being given something from God, for God that will return to God. He is forever mine.
Every day that he grows I fall in love more and more. There's rough days when I say "I'm so ready to have this boy" and in a lot of ways I am. You don't realize how hard and complicated pregnancy can be until you're actually pregnant. But I'm also trying to enjoy the experience. Having a baby is an amazing and awesome thing.
I have all kinds of fears, but I'm also really excited thinking ahead. What kind of man will he grow up to be? Will he make a difference in this world? Will he be a mama's boy or a daddy's boy? Will he be laid back and easy going like Sharb or will he take after me? Will I be beating girls off with a stick and spraying them with RAID? Will he be crazy and funny like all the little boys I've ever seen? Will he be all smooth and charming like Sharb or verbally clumsy and blunt like me? Will he be tall like his daddy? At the rate he's growing he probably will be. Will he be dark, blonde like me or somewhere in between? Will he look like me or will he look like his daddy? I've given myself over to the fact he'll probably be a goofball because we are lol.
Darian has a good example to follow in his father. If he becomes the kind of man Sharb is, there's nothing more I can hope or ask for.
